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Monday, August 24, 2009
Brian's feelings on Life
My DP character OC's Brian and Onyx. i'll give you discriptions later. this is like chapter 6, so yah,
Onyx is strong. as long as I've known her at least. but in the past few days after Danny's accident, those things started to change. She always came with us, but when it was time to go upstairs to Danny's hospital room, she would use every trick in the book to stay downstairs. like telling me she forgot her phone, then she would drop it, and pick it up again, then go over to the stairs, look up with a weird expression and go away from them, to get water or something. she would NEVER come upstairs. she still doesn’t. one day I think it was two days ago, it happened, what I knew would happen. she broke down. she cried so much Maddie had to take her home, or rather, I had to take her home. I've never seen Onyx cry before. I knew she had, a lot in her life and was trying not to, but she couldn’t hold it anymore.
once we got home, Onyx ran upstairs, and I didn’t see her again until around midnight. she looked a mess. Her hair was a mess, and she looked so miserable, I felt bad. the poor girl had gone through a lot. I didn’t know what I could do to help her. I knew my own form of calming strategies would not help her. I mean, Danny and Onyx were close, Danny and I were not. I'm not sure why, we have a lot in common, Onyx says that Danny feels threatened by me. I don’t know why. we are cousins, why does he feel threatened? I never asked Onyx why, because she told me this at the worst time possible, when I was next in line at the DMV.
I love Onyx, as a family member, don’t get any weird ideas even though you can technically have those thoughts, because we are not related. I'm Jack's nephew, so Onyx and I aren't technically related. I like to think we are though, because it's still the same family. Maddie is my aunt, or whatever you call your uncle's wife. Onyx is Maddie's kid, so, we are related. but to go back to what I was saying, Onyx is the most complicated person, besides Sam I know. I mean, Sam is an open book to me, where as I believe that EVERYTHING Onyx does is a lie in some way. she can't possibly be happy after everything that happened to her, yet she puts on the illusion that she is fine. After that night seeing her cry, I know that’s false. she has real feelings, and I saw one of them. I don’t like how she puts on a mask so society feels she's normal. who the hell cares? there are a lot of stupid people that need to put on a mask more than Onyx. like, Vlad, her dad. Everyone, especially Maddie, needs to know she's a real human- erm…she not human, but in this speech, she is, she is to me. anyway, Maddie needs to see Onyx for her, not this, happy go lucky liar. I think they need to have a serious talk.
I'll talk about Sam now, my first and best friend. I meet Sam basically when she was born. I remember being mad that Mrs. Manson wasn't having a boy. my mom had laughed at this, but at that time, I was really mad. but the good news was, that changed when Sam's perspective changed when she was about six. she started to hate the dresses she wore, and purposely ripped them up, or got them ruined with dirt. she turned into a tomboy, and wore overalls and climbed trees. that made me happy, I had a playmate, not a Barbie doll as a neighbor. we did everything together, even got bullied at school by the same kid. my mom doesn’t like it when I get bullied. she pulled both me and Sam out of school after convincing Sam's parents that she could home school us. those were fun years, I love my mom, mostly because, she's not a good teacher. she doesn’t have a lot of good lessons to teach, but I love her because she's not one of those mom's who thinks she's perfect. like Sam's mom for example. I highly believe Sam has friends because of my mom. she taught Sam to be her own person, and make mistakes, that no one is perfect and that she shouldn’t act that way. I think my mom saved her life, in the social sense of the term, and for that, Mrs. Manson doesn’t like my mom, for teaching her to be unique and speak for herself. I for one congratulate my mom. I know this may sound shallow but, I wouldn’t be Sam's friend if she acted like her parents. she would be just like Paulina.
Danny is next. my cousin. Danny, Danny, Danny…I wish my mom would teach him what she taught Sam, how to be real and true to yourself, even if you have to hide some things from people. he does good at hiding a lot from people, but he needs someone to tell everything too. I know that, because he tells Onyx, who tells me, sometimes. for example, the whole Danny and Sam thing is ticking Onyx off, because she gets two different points of view from Danny and Sam and they tend to be the same. Onyx wants Danny to just confess to Sam about his feelings, and she wants Sam to do the same. that doesn't seem wrong right? well, Onyx gets confused easily, and when Danny is dating someone else, Onyx gets upset and asks ME (yes me) why Danny doesn’t like Sam anymore. but he does!! he's in love with her! I know that! Danny confuses Onyx. that’s the bottom line. Sam confuses Onyx too. and so do I. but most Danny, since he tells Onyx everything.
Danny is an interesting character, to get back to my point. he is clueless and at times I can see right through him, but other times, he is really deep, and I can't see what he's thinking. that part of him really has me question who he really is, and I love when I get to do that. I do that with Onyx, but it's because her facade is easy to figure out. I know she's lying about everything. Danny on the other hand… I don’t know, but I do know he's at his best, personality wise, when he's with his friends, when they are at the Fenton household, or somewhere that their peers would fear to tread. he thinks that its acceptable to be who everyone wants you to be at school, or around someone he hasn’t met before, or has seen for a while, and I can see that. he acts like a hot shot around me, but because we haven't see each other in years, that and I'm older, so he wants to prove to me that he's grown up or something like that. but you know what? I know he's grown up. it shows when he's with his friends, or talking to Onyx, even about a TV show they are watching. mostly with Onyx, does his bigger person personality shows. she is his little sister, he feels he is responsible for teaching her about everything, because of Maddie, that and I don’t think Danny wants Onyx to turn out like Jazz. he wants a chance to have a really close relative, not that him and Jazz aren't close, it's just a different spectrum issue if you know what I mean. like she is older, and Danny is younger, he feels the same way about me.
Next up is Jazz . I haven't had the time to evaluate everyone in my family, just the ones I've seen change the most, like Onyx, whom I didn’t know before I came here, and Danny, and Sam, who is considered a family member as far as I'm concerned. anyway, Jazz is my cousin, when we were younger, she would pretend to be a bigger sister to me, even though I'm technically the oldest, I'm older then her by three months anyway, she likes to pretend she's older though, and in many ways, she is. I still act sort of childish and off center, but that’s because I want to relate to the person I am, not pretend to be who I'm not. and who I'm not is a grown up yet. I'm 19. I'm not 24, I don’t need to figure my life out yet. Jazz doesn't either, she can't let lose, lay back and enjoy what life gives you, even if it sucks sometimes, not try to push it along so fast that you can't tell who you are anymore. I know I make it sound like I'm a bum, but I'm not. I do a lot during my down time so to speak. I am prepared for the world, but I'm prepared for the world as a 19 year old, not an adult. I know I'll have my share of problems and life changes and going to suck worse than I could imagine, but you know what? that’s life. and I really want to teach Jazz that somehow. I taught that to Sam. it was easy to teach here, even though she is stubborn, she listens to me more than anyone. I'll let Danny deal with Onyx, unless Onyx comes to me first, so I can deal with Jazz, my little cousin.
well, I think I have to go, let someone else talk to you for a while, even though I bet you love talking to me…ha-ha.
Bye,
Brian Spencer Fenton.
Onyx is strong. as long as I've known her at least. but in the past few days after Danny's accident, those things started to change. She always came with us, but when it was time to go upstairs to Danny's hospital room, she would use every trick in the book to stay downstairs. like telling me she forgot her phone, then she would drop it, and pick it up again, then go over to the stairs, look up with a weird expression and go away from them, to get water or something. she would NEVER come upstairs. she still doesn’t. one day I think it was two days ago, it happened, what I knew would happen. she broke down. she cried so much Maddie had to take her home, or rather, I had to take her home. I've never seen Onyx cry before. I knew she had, a lot in her life and was trying not to, but she couldn’t hold it anymore.
once we got home, Onyx ran upstairs, and I didn’t see her again until around midnight. she looked a mess. Her hair was a mess, and she looked so miserable, I felt bad. the poor girl had gone through a lot. I didn’t know what I could do to help her. I knew my own form of calming strategies would not help her. I mean, Danny and Onyx were close, Danny and I were not. I'm not sure why, we have a lot in common, Onyx says that Danny feels threatened by me. I don’t know why. we are cousins, why does he feel threatened? I never asked Onyx why, because she told me this at the worst time possible, when I was next in line at the DMV.
I love Onyx, as a family member, don’t get any weird ideas even though you can technically have those thoughts, because we are not related. I'm Jack's nephew, so Onyx and I aren't technically related. I like to think we are though, because it's still the same family. Maddie is my aunt, or whatever you call your uncle's wife. Onyx is Maddie's kid, so, we are related. but to go back to what I was saying, Onyx is the most complicated person, besides Sam I know. I mean, Sam is an open book to me, where as I believe that EVERYTHING Onyx does is a lie in some way. she can't possibly be happy after everything that happened to her, yet she puts on the illusion that she is fine. After that night seeing her cry, I know that’s false. she has real feelings, and I saw one of them. I don’t like how she puts on a mask so society feels she's normal. who the hell cares? there are a lot of stupid people that need to put on a mask more than Onyx. like, Vlad, her dad. Everyone, especially Maddie, needs to know she's a real human- erm…she not human, but in this speech, she is, she is to me. anyway, Maddie needs to see Onyx for her, not this, happy go lucky liar. I think they need to have a serious talk.
I'll talk about Sam now, my first and best friend. I meet Sam basically when she was born. I remember being mad that Mrs. Manson wasn't having a boy. my mom had laughed at this, but at that time, I was really mad. but the good news was, that changed when Sam's perspective changed when she was about six. she started to hate the dresses she wore, and purposely ripped them up, or got them ruined with dirt. she turned into a tomboy, and wore overalls and climbed trees. that made me happy, I had a playmate, not a Barbie doll as a neighbor. we did everything together, even got bullied at school by the same kid. my mom doesn’t like it when I get bullied. she pulled both me and Sam out of school after convincing Sam's parents that she could home school us. those were fun years, I love my mom, mostly because, she's not a good teacher. she doesn’t have a lot of good lessons to teach, but I love her because she's not one of those mom's who thinks she's perfect. like Sam's mom for example. I highly believe Sam has friends because of my mom. she taught Sam to be her own person, and make mistakes, that no one is perfect and that she shouldn’t act that way. I think my mom saved her life, in the social sense of the term, and for that, Mrs. Manson doesn’t like my mom, for teaching her to be unique and speak for herself. I for one congratulate my mom. I know this may sound shallow but, I wouldn’t be Sam's friend if she acted like her parents. she would be just like Paulina.
Danny is next. my cousin. Danny, Danny, Danny…I wish my mom would teach him what she taught Sam, how to be real and true to yourself, even if you have to hide some things from people. he does good at hiding a lot from people, but he needs someone to tell everything too. I know that, because he tells Onyx, who tells me, sometimes. for example, the whole Danny and Sam thing is ticking Onyx off, because she gets two different points of view from Danny and Sam and they tend to be the same. Onyx wants Danny to just confess to Sam about his feelings, and she wants Sam to do the same. that doesn't seem wrong right? well, Onyx gets confused easily, and when Danny is dating someone else, Onyx gets upset and asks ME (yes me) why Danny doesn’t like Sam anymore. but he does!! he's in love with her! I know that! Danny confuses Onyx. that’s the bottom line. Sam confuses Onyx too. and so do I. but most Danny, since he tells Onyx everything.
Danny is an interesting character, to get back to my point. he is clueless and at times I can see right through him, but other times, he is really deep, and I can't see what he's thinking. that part of him really has me question who he really is, and I love when I get to do that. I do that with Onyx, but it's because her facade is easy to figure out. I know she's lying about everything. Danny on the other hand… I don’t know, but I do know he's at his best, personality wise, when he's with his friends, when they are at the Fenton household, or somewhere that their peers would fear to tread. he thinks that its acceptable to be who everyone wants you to be at school, or around someone he hasn’t met before, or has seen for a while, and I can see that. he acts like a hot shot around me, but because we haven't see each other in years, that and I'm older, so he wants to prove to me that he's grown up or something like that. but you know what? I know he's grown up. it shows when he's with his friends, or talking to Onyx, even about a TV show they are watching. mostly with Onyx, does his bigger person personality shows. she is his little sister, he feels he is responsible for teaching her about everything, because of Maddie, that and I don’t think Danny wants Onyx to turn out like Jazz. he wants a chance to have a really close relative, not that him and Jazz aren't close, it's just a different spectrum issue if you know what I mean. like she is older, and Danny is younger, he feels the same way about me.
Next up is Jazz . I haven't had the time to evaluate everyone in my family, just the ones I've seen change the most, like Onyx, whom I didn’t know before I came here, and Danny, and Sam, who is considered a family member as far as I'm concerned. anyway, Jazz is my cousin, when we were younger, she would pretend to be a bigger sister to me, even though I'm technically the oldest, I'm older then her by three months anyway, she likes to pretend she's older though, and in many ways, she is. I still act sort of childish and off center, but that’s because I want to relate to the person I am, not pretend to be who I'm not. and who I'm not is a grown up yet. I'm 19. I'm not 24, I don’t need to figure my life out yet. Jazz doesn't either, she can't let lose, lay back and enjoy what life gives you, even if it sucks sometimes, not try to push it along so fast that you can't tell who you are anymore. I know I make it sound like I'm a bum, but I'm not. I do a lot during my down time so to speak. I am prepared for the world, but I'm prepared for the world as a 19 year old, not an adult. I know I'll have my share of problems and life changes and going to suck worse than I could imagine, but you know what? that’s life. and I really want to teach Jazz that somehow. I taught that to Sam. it was easy to teach here, even though she is stubborn, she listens to me more than anyone. I'll let Danny deal with Onyx, unless Onyx comes to me first, so I can deal with Jazz, my little cousin.
well, I think I have to go, let someone else talk to you for a while, even though I bet you love talking to me…ha-ha.
Bye,
Brian Spencer Fenton.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
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